Hey there!
So obviously I know who I am. I'm Natalie, plain and simple. But recently I've been feeling more....adventurous when it comes to what I like. Coming from a Christian household, brought up by Nigerian parents, I've lived a very sheltered life. Obviously I'm thankful for all my parents have done for as it has shaped the way I choose to live my life. I'm glad for being raised as a Christian, I'm also glad that they didn't try to really force it on me, they let me gradually come to the decision that to give my life to Christ. And I'm thankful for my strict, sheltered upbringing, it taught me that you can't trust someone just because they say pretty words.
However, things that I consider to be rebellious are nothing compared to other people. Me wanting to go to a party and get picked up later than 10:30 is rebellious, even though most people I know don't leave till at least 11:30.
Recently I have been feeling more adventurous and I kind of want to embrace it. However, I'm not exactly comfortable with my body to be able to wear more exciting clothing, even though I long to. So I satisfy my need for adventure in little ways. Like I recently got a phone case which had bras on it because I thought it was the cutest thing, but part of me was freaking out, wondering if it was too much, if it was too hipstery (no offence to anyone but that was the only word I could think of) I feel like any time I do anything outside of my comfort zone, I'm suddenly exposed as a kind of wannabe, which is not what I want to be. Like a week ago, I expressed my desire to get false nails put on as I always cut them to short and so never get to use my nail polish that I've spent FOREVER buying. But when I told my friend she said, "no, don't be one of THOSE girls". Now I know she meant well and didn't want me to look tacky or portray a stereotype, but as soon as she said that I felt myself feel stupid for wanting fake nails. You see what I'm getting at?
It's ridiculous for me to base my choices on what other people think. I shouldn't let myself be so easily influenced by other peoples opinions. You only get one life and you can't live it in fear of judgement. So I did use the phone case, and I love it, and I am going to get false nails put on, and wear my neglected nail polish! And when I do leave home later this year, I will stay at parties until I want to leave and not feel like I'm disobeying orders. If we carry on living our life in fear of other people's judgements then what life are we living?
Sorry, I know this was sort of rambly, and long, but I just wanted to let whoever reads this know that only YOU can live YOUR life. Not your parents or your friends, only YOU. You are an independent person and though your decisions may not always be the right ones, they are yours. You are YOU, simple enough. You are not who others tell you to be, only you can decide what to do with your life. So be you and go out into this crazy world and live life and be as adventurous as you want to be!
Yeah, so anyway, to whoever read this all the way through, thank you. You are amazing and I hope this helped. And if any of this applies in any way to you, leave a comment, or tweet me and we can talk it out and sip our fictional lattes and munch our imaginary cookies (like we're in a coffee shop if you didn't get that).
I really hope this made sense, if it didn't please let me know.
I'll see you guys later,
With Love,
Natalie
x
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I've recently done a post very similar to this! You're right - the most time we spend worrying about what other people think of our choices, the more time we are essentially wasting. As long as you are happy, then it should not matter what other people think. It is your life after all, and I personally don't want to regret not doing the things what would make me happy x
ReplyDeleteExactly! You don't want to wake up in 30 years and regret all that you never did!
DeleteThank you so much for reading and leaving a comment, it really means a lot :) x